I did it!

I did it! I made it to they gym this morning.  I rode the bike for 45 minutes and did not die! HA!

I had a little set back...hurt my foot/leg, so exercise has not been a priority. My ass getting fatter apparently was!!

Tomorrow I am going to try the treadmill, hopefully my foot will hold up! I really want to start the c25k program again.  I am starting no carbs on Tuesday...until Christmas Eve. We will see how that goes. I think i can do it..I mean I did it before with no problem!! If I falter, that is ok, but I am pledging to not eat any carbs for dinner.   Wish me luck! :)

F.A.T.

Okay folks, I am fat . I mean F.A.T.

There I said it. Now (fingers crossed) I will be motivated to do something about this. I keep thinking, tomorrow I will start. No damn it. You will start immediately.

I am going to the gym tomorrow and starting week 1 of C25k.  This is just ridiculous. I am tired all of the time. I believe this is because I am not exercising.

Ok, so my plan is to check in everyday, and be accountable, even if I am the only one reading this!

Happy Friday...see you tomorrow!

summer summer summer!

It has been awhile!

I can't say that I have been doing anything too exciting. I certainly have not been working out! I am doing ww online and am doing pretty well so far. It has been over 3 weeks and I have lost 5.5 pounds. Not too shabby. 

The summer is coming to an end :( boo. I had to buy a new car over the weekend....stressful, but I am in love with my brand spanking new jetta. I am talking only 40 miles on it when I drove it away! LOVE. 

This weekend my bestie and I are walking a 5k.  We wanted to run part of it, but I failed on that. I am excited to go to the fitness expo though!

I will let you know how it goes...

That Pit

It's been awhile since I posted.
Baby Tess arrived! She is now 3 weeks old and a beauty. I went to maui, had a great time.

Tonight I have an uneasy feeling in the pit of my stomach. choices are so difficult and I continually question myself and think I am not makin the right one. I have this horrible problem of second guessing my decisions, if I chose to do one thing, will I miss out on something else? It is so lame and I know it!!! I am just completely and utterly frutstrated with myself.

I wish i was one of those people that enjoyed being alone, and 'discovered" herself.... i have not done that. :(

Wednesday...

It's been a while since I posted. I have been busy and just don't feel like I have had all that much of importance to say. 

I have been working out really hard this week (well, since Saturday...but I am proud).  I have been doing the elliptical for 10, the bike for 20, the treadmill for 20 and the rowing machine for 5.  I am trying really hard to lose weight before I leave for Maui...my shorts do not fit. I have heard that the ellliptical is the best for dropping weight. I have felt like I could go for longer than 10 minutes, so I am going to push myself tomorrow.  I kind of love the feeling of how much I am working out. 

I have been looking around my house and after moving some furniture around, I want to purge. I am going to get rid of some stuff this summer. There is stuff that I know I have not looked at in over a year or needed, so why am I holding on to it.  Hmmmm...that kind of reminds me of life. Get rid of baggage!!!!!

Still no baby Tess. :/ grrrr.

Have a great rest of your week! :)

Waiting on a baby...

So I am about to get very personal here.  I consider this blog to basically be my journal to my self. I don't share a lot of really deep feelings, but I need to put them down at the moment. I am pretty sad. I really believe that no one is ever going to love me. i feel like C was the only chance I had and I will never stop loving him or that anyone else will ever love me.  I just hate where I am in my life. I can't seem to shake it. everytime I think I am getting better and things are going well, that other shoe drops and i go through a really bad period. I have to realize that this too shall pass. I am tired of having these times though. I don't feel like I am strong enough to handle them.  I am just cracking under all the pressure and the lack of support and love. I have a wonderful family and friends, but I need that one person that will love me and I can love back.  I feel like such a whiner for even saying these things, but it is truly how I feel. 
Sometimes I just can not wait for nights to be over, to go to bed so the next day can start.

It makes me so angry at myself when I am sad and there are happy things going on all around me. My new niece should be hear any day and i can not wait to see that precious baby.   I can not wait to see Kate's reaction to her. My heart feels like it is going to burst with how much I love Kate.

That should be enough, shouldn't it?

(sorry for the depresso post!)

June

Wow~
It is June already! Time flies!

This weekend has been super busy.  Here are a few pics from over the weekend. I had a baby shower for my sister at my mom's house. I got these flowers from the farmers market ...

And made these cupcakes and tags...

Red Velvet cupcakes...yum! Plus, I used the canned frosting...has anyone done this? That stuff is A.W.E.S.O.M.E! Anyone could decorate a cake or cupcakes! :) I wasn't too happy with the dyed red fingers though...oh well.

June has started my 21 day challenge....I am challenging myself to 21 days of counting points and working out! By next week I plan to start c25k again.  I am just working out right now. 

I just made the yummiest dinner...baked chicken parmesean (weight watchers recipe...super good!)...steamed broccoli and garlic bread. I really do love cooking.  I have to spend more time doing it.  Good thing summer is coming up!

The only thing I do not like about summer is the re-runs! boo.  I guess I just have to become one with my dvr.  And get a new dvd player! Mine does not work, which also means I can not use my wii right now either. double boo. 

I hope eveyone is having a good first day of June!

Emotional Baggage

Yah, yah...so I stole that title from the one and only Tim McGraw. It really hit home with me tonight. I have so much emotional baggage...and I think it is manifested in the extra weight I carry around. The truth is I don't want to be heavy and overweight. I do know that I use it as a defense, so that no one can see the real me. I have a hard time believing anyone likes me for me. I know...I have issues :) ha!

Today was a weird day...I was doing really well with my points, etc. But then I got this overwhelming anxious feeling this afternoon.  For.No.Reason! Maybe it is stress.

I am super excited to get to the gym tomorrow...
I also can not wait for the 3 day weekend!!! My back is feeling much better, so I plan on being very active...plus the weather is supposed to be grrrrrrrrreat! :)

See ya soon!

Oh jealousy!

Fitbloggin'...I wish I was there! I am slightly obsessed this weekend with reading blogs about the conference. I wish I could go to that...maybe next year?!?!?

This weekend has been busy and lazy all at the same time. I seriously jacked up my back. Such bad spasms. I contemplated going to the er on friday night...but got myself to sleep instead! Insanely painful.  Saturday I went to the farmers market, painfully walked around and got some veggies. then I went to a graduation party for a little bit.  It was also my sisters  birthday, so went out to dinner that night. Lots of eating out.

Today I was lazy.  I spent the morning shopping for my sisters baby shower next weekend. I went by Ross and got two very cute dresses. I am starting to become obsessed with these stores!! :)

I am looking to join a weight watchers meeting on tuesday nights somewhere between Del Mar and here. I have an appointment every other tuesday night, so I figure I could just kill two birds with one stone. I will check in to that in a minute.

Groceries and gas are killing me. Why is it so costly to eat healthy?? 

Is it Friday yet?

I am happy it is Thursday...but come on Friday!!!

I am sitting at my desk, wanting to be outside! It is beautiful...dreaming of riding my bike along the coast! Of course the weather is going to change just in time for the weekend :(. 
It probably doesnt help that a Jimmy Buffett song just came on my ipod mix.

I will be back later with things to be thankful for on Thursday :)

MIA

Sorry for being MIA. I have been busy.  I am shocked to say that I did not turn on my laptop ALL weekend! What?  yes, really :).  It kind of felt nice. 

I hope you all had a great mothers day...we went to brunch at Pala casino...yah, not so good for the diet.  But I did very well! I didn't go to the gym all weekend....loser...too bad it is not a weight loser!

I am using SparkPeople to help me with keep tracking of what I am eating.  Tomorrow I am off to the gym. I got my errands out of the way, so I have NO excuse!

I just found out that a precious little 6 year old girl who has been battling cancer lost her fight tonight.  I can not even begin to imagine what that family is going through. I am happy for Claire who is now in a very happy place with Jesus.  It just sucks for those left behind...life is not fair sometimes.
I am going to leave you with her favorite saying ..."there's always something to believe in". 

Day 1 of C25k and no carbs

It has been a beautiful weekend here in southeran California! (: I have been in heaven.  I definately enjoy warmer weather...not a fan of cold weather...I feel that if it is cold it should be raining. 

Sadly my Spring Break is over...but there are only about 6 weeks left of school! WooHoo!

This afternoon I got my butt in gear and started week one of c25k...it was hard, I am not going to lie.  I actually couldn't run the last two intervals.  ):  not good. But at least I started.  I can really tell how much weight I have gained....I felt like an elephant.  How did I let this happen???  Oh yeah, I think I got too cocky. 

After the gym I went to the store so that I can start phase 1 of the South beach diet.  This worked for me about a year ago.  I lose about 18 pounds by not eating carbs.  I am hopeful that with no carbs and training for the 5k I will lose!! I hope so...

I have a crustless quiche in the oven right now :). 

have a good Sunday evening!

Reality Check

This morning I had a doctor's appointment.  I am really disappointed in myself.  It is time to get my ass in gear.  I have gained weight and feel extremely fat.  I am sick about this. 

Unfortunately my first reaction to "going on a diet" is to eat everything that I am going to eliminate from my house - NOW! I know, horrible idea. I keep telling myself that.  I have one cupcake left and am going to eat that to get it out of here...I am sure I will only eat half of it....I will let you know ;) I came home from the doc and made myself a salad for lunch.  Spicy ranch dressing, butter lettuce, some cheese and a morningstar chicken patty.  It was really good.  I can't afford to do weight watchers weekly...so I am going to count calories and work my ass off - it better end up being literally!

Tomorrow I am starting c25k.  I read on Mama Laughlin's blog that she lost 40 pounds in 9 weeks through this! HOLY COW.  I know I feel better when I exercise. I have every other day this week.  Gym and a bike ride through the harbor.  I loved it.  I know that none of my shorts are going to fit this summer unless I lose at least 20 pounds.  I can do that in 9 weeks, right?  I need to go do some research on how many calories I should be eating in a day.  I am open to any suggestions ;)

Let the games begin....

Spring Break is finally here! Finally! Did I say finally? I needed a break from work so badly!!

Easter was great as usual.  It is my favorite church service of the year...I love the music! We had an easter egg hunt at mom and dad's for Kate.  Wow, she scored! Mom got us little easter basket, not too much candy! I gave some to my sis and bro in law.  Kate said to me "you are such a nice sister".  I asked her why, and she said, "you gave candy to your big sister, that is nice, you shared".  so damn cute. I think she is trying to convince herself that having a little sis will be ok :).  She has no idea the fun that will ensue! we went back to my parents house for dinner that night.  In between, I took a 2 hour nap! That never happens! I was supposed to go to the gym, but sleeping was happening instead!

I started off my spring break with a good workout. I went to the gym this am and did the treadmill.  Felt good to have the sweat dripping down my back! tomorrow I am going to go for a bike ride.  It is supposed to be tshirt and shorts weather here...in the 80's by Wednesday! I am in heaven!

My bff and I signed up to run a 5k at the end of August.  I am excited. I need to get into training mode though.  She is kicking my butt already! :) 

This afternoon I am going with my sis to register her for the new baby.  i think we are going to Target.  Also, have to start planning the baby shower. I love to throw parties!

Later I am going to post my goals for the month of May.

Have a great Monday!

Better Days

I think I have seen better days....today sucked! :)

To help me get out of my funk/bad mood I headed to the gym.  I was only able to do the stationary bike for 45 mins...stupid chest cold! But it felt good!

I have been doing well with eating...just not seeing any results. So frustrating...but I will get there.

I need to overhaul my life...any suggestions????

Gosh I don't know what to write about. So I am just going to kind of ramble, like a diary :)

Things are good, but at the same time, I am disappointed. I am disappointed in life, myself, others... the list goes on. I hate feeling this way. I was watching something that said you are happy if you tell yourself you are happy. For some reason I can not get it out of my head. I think about it in the morning driving to work.  It is very difficult to be happy with work.  I am in a bad situation, but thankful I have a j.o.b. :)  but that will eventually change. Anyways...my point was that the same show said that if you are depressed, sad, etc...you are encouraging it by seeing yourself that way. On that note, as someone that has struggled with anxiety/depression...that is VERY difficult to do. There is something that overtakes you and is extremely overwhelming...it is not controllable and it is NOT the person's fault.  You already feel bad because of the way you feel.  I am lucky to have an amazing counselor and she is just what I needed.
If you know me well, I do not easily open up to people or express my feeling easily. 

Ok, enough with that rant.:) I really did not mean for it to be a rant :)

My niece is staying with me this weekend....LOVE! Tomorrow my parents and I are taking her to Legoland.  She has never been....I can't wait to see how she likes it.  She is really excited. She said in the car tonight, "I am having a really exciting time. I am staying with you Auntie, going to Legoland and Max's party",  Holy crap, that is an exciting weekend if you are 3! I love that Kate comes over and it is now her bedroom, not mine. I have the best niece in the world. I love that little girl more than words could ever express.  It is amazing the feeling I got the moment I held her. She asked me why I was crying in that picture.  I told her because it was the first time I saw her and loved her more than the world. 

I can't make it to the gym tomorrow, but there should be lots of walking at Legoland.  Looking forward to a normal week...so my workouts can be normal!!! I need to be better about my eating.  I know that there are some days I eat too much, and then some that I don't eat enough.  No wonder my body is not reacting in the way I want it to~ must work on that!!

I hope everyone is having a great Friday!

ahhhh

I finally did it, I made it back to the gym. I felt really good making it there. It helped that one of the "real housewives..." of something was on.  Turned my ipod on, and I was off walking on the treadmill.  I just walked, no running.  Then I did the eliptical and the rowing machine.  It wasn't my best workout, but it felt good. Afterwards, i got a jamba juice and then headed to Target for a few groceries and a new pillow.  Pillows are on sale for $4! woohoo. 

My plan was to make taco salad for dinner, so I needed to get some lettuce.  I was really disappointed with the options at Target. There were 3 heads of lettuce and they were small. I figured I would only get one salad out of it.  The bags of salad were pathetic.  They were half way empty.  Usually I am not disappointed by Target, but I was today. :( not good Target, not good. I went to plan b and just made it without lettuce. I did not want to stop at another grocery store.

The weather was awesome today. I hope it continues. I did some spring cleaning today.  I cleaned out my bathroom cabinet and drawer. I am not sure what got in to me. :)

April is going to be my no excuse month. I will work out 5 times a week.  I want to see results. I also think I am going to do ww on my own.  I have all the info for the points plus program...so I might as well give it a try for April also.  I will be successful!!!! I will let you know how it works out!

Whole Foods...how I love you!

Hi there!

I have been a lazy butt all week. Yes, my goals to get to the gym have not been met this week. But here is to a new one. I started today by walking around Mission Bay for a bit...not sure what the distance was.  But at least i was moving!

Then it was on to Whole Foods. I love that place. We are getting one closer to home this summer. I have a feeling I will be going all the time. Right now I only go about every couple of weeks since it is about 45 minutes away.  But it is so worth it!   I have heard a lot about "Justin's" peanut butter packets on different blogs. So, i bought some. I can not wait to try them!

I will be sleeping in tomorrow and then working out!!! Sounds like a good sunday to me...what are you doing?

Blah...

So I have the blah's. I hate when that happens. Yesterday it was so bad, I did not even want to read blogs! What?!?!?! I must snap out of that! I love reading blogs. They give me so much inspiration and hope. I only have 2 followers, I guess this may just be more of a journal for myself.

I didn't weigh this weekend.  Things just got too hectic. I also did not work out this weekend.  That needs to change. My mood is so much better when I work out. I will get on it tomorrow. I am going to try the elliptical again...hopefully I don't pass out. No, that has not happened, but it is my worst fear!

I finished the yearbook at work today. I felt like it was a big accomplishment...and so relieved. It has been taking up so much of my time.

This weekend is Kate's hat parade...I can't wait! She gave me a preview of the songs she will be singing...too cute!

Lately I have been relying a lot on my standard chicken parmesean. I got the recipe from weight watchers. it is so easy and so good. Plus it is the perfect leftover for work. 

I am setting goals for myself this week:

• drink at least 48 oz of water
• work out on Tuesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday
• farmers market on Saturday
• do what makes me happy!

I will let you know how it goes...

A week has gone by...

It has been a week. Ooops. I weighed in on Saturday and lost 1.8 pounds. I was happy with that. I did not exercise at all during the work week! Not good. But at least I did not gain. The no carb thing is going well. It is hard, but it works. I still allow myself to have the occassional sugar...I just can't give it all up!!

I am looking forward to working out tomorrow. Treadmill and the eliptical. I have not done the eliptical in a long time...should be interesting. 

I am officially addicted to reading blogs!! I can't stop. I constantly look at other people's blog rolls. Crazy!! I feel so inspired when I read them!

ok, that is all for now!

Making Friends...

I am so happy for the time change, but I am not happy with being tired! :) This weekend I went for a walk at the beach - it was a beautiful day again! I had a party to go to that evening, I was a little worried about not eating carbs. It was at the home of some very close friends, and let me tell you, Jim is the best cook! He makes steak that I will eat ( I am not a big fan of red meat).  Well, it was taco night with  all the trimmings. So I basically made myself a taco salad..it was yum! However, I did have some wine...but it was worth it. Sunday morning I went for a 3 mile walk at the Harbor...not so pretty that day, but it got prettier the rest of the day :).
These next 2 weeks are very busy for me and stressful.  I am really going to have to pay attention to not eating out of stress.  And I need to keep consistent with working out!
I read on a blog All The Weigh about a friend making exercise. So here it goes:

) What's your favorite brand of make-up? Are you loyal to one brand?  I like clinique, but there is also some at Target that I like, Elf.  I also love MAC and Bobbi Brown, those usually come as hand me downs from my sis :)

2) What is the last thing you drank? hmmm...water

3) What's your favorite Girl Scout cookie? Thin Mints of course! I also love the samoa's and the peanut butter sandwich cookies...Tagalongs????

) French Fries or Onion Rings?I admit, I do love the occasional guilty pleasure of McDonald's fries. I love home made onion rings!

5) Share something you've done in the last week that makes you proud of yourself. Given up carbs for Lent!

6) What is your favorite inexpensive indulgence?Flowers from the Farmers Market....$5 and under kind

7) Are you currently reading a book? If so, which one? "Safe Haven" by Nicholas Sparks

8) Do you prefer to text or talk? Either one, but sometimes texting is so much easier!

9) Have you ever performed on stage? Yes, at a talent show in Elementary School and then karaoke with a friend in front of a lot of people...bad idea!!

10) Are you more likely to pick truth or dare? I think it would depend on who I was playing with ;)

I hope I make some new blog friends! :)

No More Carbs

40 days without carbs. I think I can, I think I can. No, I will. Basically I am cutting out the breads, pastas, processed foods, chips, crackers, etc. It takes me forever to pack my lunch and a lot of planning ahead. I am cooking 2 giant chicken breasts as we speak.  My lunch tomorrow will be:
Chicken
bell peppers and hummus
ff/sf pudding

2 snacks:
cheese and cashews
celery and pb

My biggest problem is breakfast. I am not a big fan of breakfast at all.  I am not all that interested in eating it.  I buy or make a mocha glacier (even though it has sugar...it is something I just can not give up).  I guess I will have to start making an egg for breakfast. This is going to be hard for me. But I will do it! :)

I have not been so good at exercising this week.  Tomorrow I will get back on track....I promise!!!

Today was another beautiful day, I am so happy the time is changing this weekend.  I am definately a spring and summer girl.  This weather is teasing me.  I am looking forward to going to the Farmers Market on Saturday morning and then maybe a bike ride.  Sunday I am doing another long walk with friends, this time around the harbor. 

talk to you soon! did you give up anything for Lent?

It's Monday...2 more days to eat carbs

Wow, it is Monday night already. I can not wait for the weekend! Saturday was beautiful! A perfect spring day in southern California. 

I was supposed to do the 5k on Saturday in Balboa Park.  Well, my friends and I got there too late. They were not letting people check in and we were already running late. There was absolutely no parking.  ANYWHERE.  Thankfully, the three of us were determined to walk.  I knew I was, but I wasn't too sure if everyone else was game. I did not want to turn around after waking up at 5:30 in the morning! So we drove down to the harbor/airport area.  We walked, and walked, and walked. We walked from Spanish Landing to Seaport Village. It was beautiful, still very early, but beautiful.  We ate breakfast and walked back to the car. We clocked it and it was over 7 miles! Holy Cow...we did a 10k instead of a 5k :).  We then went on the USS Midway, which was a lot more walking. 

I felt great that night and the next day.  I could feel it, but not in pain, or anything like that.  It felt great to have walked that far.  I want to do it again!

Unfortunately, I did not work out on Sunday.  It was  a long day with lots of errands and obligations.  Oh well. I weighed in and had gained .4. :( But then about 2 hours later I got TOM. So I am not too worried, I feel like I am losing weight. 

I have one more day to eat carbs.  I have already been cutting them down quite a bit, but they are going out the door on Wednesday for Lent.  I am planning to have bread and some pasta tomorrow night for dinner...and then I need to work out!!

:) good night!

Taco Bell

I was really supposed to work out tonight, but by the time I got back from work and an appointment, it was already 7:30 and I was hungry! I stopped by Taco Bell...why? I think going there was better than the big golden arches???? I hope so.  I haven't had fast food in quite awhile.  I know I should not have done it, but I was tired and hungry.  Ok, I need to get a grip and get back on the road tomorrow. 

Saturday I am doing a 5k walk for "Chelsea's Light"...should be fun.  I wish I could wake up early to work out.  I just can't do it...I love my sleep! Maybe I should give it a try again though. 

Today's been a day. My sister got a new teaching job, so she and my niece will not be at my school anymore.  I am sad and jealous that she is leaving! :)  My mom is quitting her afternoon bookkeeping job and just will teach in the am.  I feel abandoned!!! Ha! But I am truly happy for both of them.  I just wish I was in the position to do the same! Oh well...I will get there.

I need to get some new tennis shoes.  Any suggestions? Also, how do you decide how many calories you should eat? do you just look it up somewhere? I need some help!

:) good night!

Gym

I did it! I ran for 5 minutes twice. It felt like a big accomplishment. I have this weird little cut/blister on one of my toes...and it hurts. But that did not stop me!
I started using the "Ultimate Diet Log" today. So far I am just on the 5 day self-assessment.  I have been eating well this week so far. I still feel hungry most of the time. I am hoping that will go away!??!  Saturday I am doing a 5k..well, walking anyways, for "Finish Chelsea's Run". It is in Balboa Park, I am excited, it is so beautiful there, I will have to take pictures. 
Biggest Loser is about to come on, yes, I am a geek, I am excited.
That's all for now!
Good night <3

-2.2

I switched my weigh in day to Sundays. Mondays are just way too hectic for me in the mornings (ie: I don't want to get out of bed on most Mondays).  2.2 pound lost...I am really thrilled with that, especially with it having been my birthday. Chris and Kale made me dinner Friday night...it was so good, but so not healthy.  But sooo good!! :)
Saturday I went to the gym.  I am trying to figure out running.  Not sure if I should be doing the c25k or something on my own...a training on my own.  I did running 3 minutes, and walk 2 for 30 minutes. I was definately not as sore. Today I went on a super long walk at the beach with Steph and Max.  It was probably almost 3 miles. We did stop and have breakfast though. 
I am watching the Oscars with my mom (our tradition) and ate way too much pizza (another tradition). 
Tomorrow is my non-workout day, I go hang with Kate and the pregnant sissy.  We try to eat healthy for dinner, but that does not work. 
10 days until the complete no-carb enters my mouth experiment begins. I am already doing it to a certain extent, except for tonight.  :)
Good night!

It's My Birthday, And I'll Cry If I Want To....

No, No I won't! I had a fabulous birthday, despite trying to deny my age :). 
I was overwhelmed by the love at work.  I have a great group of core friends there and a great boss. They spoiled me with gift cards and flowers. My friends are amazing, my two best friends both sent me birthday wishes first thing in the morning.  My niece said, "Happy Birthday, Auntie"...which melts my heart. 
I am blessed. I usually dread my birthday and get a little sad that I am "alone".  It has taken awhile for me to realize that I have an abundance of family and friends. And I love them with all of my heart. Friends are making me dinner tomorrow night, and nothing makes me happier.

Yes, the diet went out the window this morning. I am going to go carb-less on Ash Wednesday, I can do 40 days with no carbs. I am kind of looking forward to the challenge again.  Yes, there are birthdays in there, but it will work out. 

Speaking of workout, I haven't today.  I will jump back on that treadmill on Saturday. Oh, and it is supposed to be 4freaking9 degrees on Saturday. Really? This is NOT why I live in Southern California.  But, I bet it will be beautiful by the ocean.

Shoelaces

As I was getting changed to go to the gym this evening, my shoelace broke. I do not think that I have worn out a shoelace since I was kid! This may not seem like a big deal, but as I was driving to the gym, I got to thinking. That must mean that I am wearing my tennies A LOT. I must be exercising...i don't wear tennis shoes that often.  hmmm.  I must be doing something right.
I was supposed to do the second day of week 4 (c25k)...I really struggled. My legs/hips have been really sore since Sundays work out.  I couldn't finish the 5 minute runs. But at least I tried and did not completely give up. I have a feeling that I will probably need to do this week for 2 weeks. That is ok, as long as I do it.
Tomorrow is my birthday, not sure what that will bring.  I hope I get through the day with a smile on my face.
I took some pictures tonight..I can not wait to compare them with photos in a month. 
Weight loss is tough. The older you get, the tougher it gets!

Starting...

So I am starting this blog tonight. I have been reading blogs for over a year now...and I am addicted! I want to start my weight loss journey now.
I weighed myself today using my wii and I weighed in at 238.3. What the heck happened??? I am so disappointed in myself.  I am currently on week 4 of the c25k program.  I literally thought my legs/hips/butt were going to fall off last night...wouldn't that have been nice!! It was the hardest one so far, run 3 mins and then 5 minutes. good times, let me tell you, it was hard!! Then I did the rowing machine. I love that machine...and I need something to get rid of my bat wings.
No work today so I wanted to work out but I knew I could not have any part of the gym.  So I took my beach cruiser down to the harbor. I rode around for about 45 minutes. I enjoyed spending the time listening to my ipod and taking some pictures.
My birthday is on Thursday, so the diet will go out the window that day. But I did tell my mom I did not want a cake that there was a ton of leftovers...so we are going with an ice cream cake..a one day indulgence! :)