Salad Obsessed!

I am obsessed with salads right now. I am having a big one with dinner and a small side of something to eat. Tonight it was frozen thin crust pizza and  I have to say it was yum-o.
Last weekend I was sick. Flat on my butt sick for 5 days. the great...awesome...news in all of that was that I lost between 8 and 10 pounds! Nice. although it was not the healthiest way...i will take it as a jump start. When I got on the scale this afternoon it said, 262.4, so that is down 5.3 pounds. sweet. my official weigh in day is on Wednesdays due to the Mama Laughlin Fit Camp Challenge. My team is the Hardcore Holly Jolly's! We are going to kick some booty! We start on Wednesday! And somehow I ended up being the team captain...awesome!
Happy Sunday!

Big F.A.T. wake up call!

I do believe I have had my wake up call. I take blood pressure medication and I have seen how my weight directly effects my pressure. I have a dad that has a serious heart condition and I know that I can inherit that from him. But do I do anything about it? No. Not until now that is.

I have had a headache since Sunday afternoon. It has been hot here and I just thought it was the weather and that I need to get my eyes checked. 
On Wednesday, I was at work for about 45 minutes when i started to get light headed, nauseous and shaky. I literally wanted to lay down on the floor in the bathroom. I gave it a little while thinking it would go away. It didn't so I ended up coming home. Long story short, I went to the Urgent Care last night. Basically I think it is my blood pressure. It was really high tonight, I'm talking 150/101. WTF?  I am a poor single girl and occasionally I can not get my prescriptions refilled on time. And so I was off my meds for awhile. The doc explained that that was probably why I have a headache and because my pressure is high. 
I stayed home again today and it is off and on better. I do think I might have a touch of a flu because I am sick to my stomach and sleeping a lot. 
I remember bargaining with God last night that if he would just let me feel better, I would never not take my meds and I would lose weight and work out. 

I honestly am a bit scared to go to my follow up appointment tomorrow. I am hoping my pressure is back down a bit. I hate seeing new doctors and frankly I know that they will tell me I am obese and need to lose weight. I KNOW THAT! 

Now is the time that I will do it. I had already signed up to do an 8 week program with my bff. According to my scale I have already lost a few pounds..,but of course  I do not believe it.
I am not going to let myself feel this way again. SO STUPID.

I have never put my weight out there and I am soooo mortified to do so, but I have to be held accountable. Will you help me?
Starting weight : 267.6

I have made a pinterest craft...what?...yes, I made something from Pinterest! It is a weight loss cup with glass bubbles that represent how much weight I need to lose. I'll snag a picture and post it :) 
I need to go this weekend and stock up on my fruits and veggies from the farmers market. 
I don't think there is anyone out there that reads this, but that is OK, I am doing this for me! isn't that what weight loss is all about? Oh, and because I want to be around for these two beautiful nieces of mine!