For some reason I am riddled with anxiety tonight. No, that is not true, I know why. I just don't want to admit it to myself. I hate that one person can make me feel so uneasy. That my life feels upside down and not right when that one person is not here at this moment. My stomach is in knots, and all I want to do is cry, but the tears won't come.
This is going to be a long upcoming month. I am excited for the first part...going to Maui. I worry that I won't be able to get out of this "funk" while I am there. I know this shall pass too, it always does, and tomorrow is a new day. I hate those stupid cliches, but I use them all the time. When I don't have an explanation for what is going on in my life or why it is not a different way, I say "it is what it is". That is total crap. I hate that saying.
I have always felt like I need to be perfect for everyone else and make everyone else happy.
I need to get back to exercising and maybe my mood will improve. All I can do is try and hope for the best. I just need this feeling to go away...and fast!
