Yah, yah...so I stole that title from the one and only Tim McGraw. It really hit home with me tonight. I have so much emotional baggage...and I think it is manifested in the extra weight I carry around. The truth is I don't want to be heavy and overweight. I do know that I use it as a defense, so that no one can see the real me. I have a hard time believing anyone likes me for me. I know...I have issues :) ha!
Today was a weird day...I was doing really well with my points, etc. But then I got this overwhelming anxious feeling this afternoon. For.No.Reason! Maybe it is stress.
I am super excited to get to the gym tomorrow...
I also can not wait for the 3 day weekend!!! My back is feeling much better, so I plan on being very active...plus the weather is supposed to be grrrrrrrrreat! :)
See ya soon!
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Sunday, May 22, 2011
Oh jealousy!
Fitbloggin'...I wish I was there! I am slightly obsessed this weekend with reading blogs about the conference. I wish I could go to that...maybe next year?!?!?
This weekend has been busy and lazy all at the same time. I seriously jacked up my back. Such bad spasms. I contemplated going to the er on friday night...but got myself to sleep instead! Insanely painful. Saturday I went to the farmers market, painfully walked around and got some veggies. then I went to a graduation party for a little bit. It was also my sisters birthday, so went out to dinner that night. Lots of eating out.
Today I was lazy. I spent the morning shopping for my sisters baby shower next weekend. I went by Ross and got two very cute dresses. I am starting to become obsessed with these stores!! :)
I am looking to join a weight watchers meeting on tuesday nights somewhere between Del Mar and here. I have an appointment every other tuesday night, so I figure I could just kill two birds with one stone. I will check in to that in a minute.
Groceries and gas are killing me. Why is it so costly to eat healthy??
This weekend has been busy and lazy all at the same time. I seriously jacked up my back. Such bad spasms. I contemplated going to the er on friday night...but got myself to sleep instead! Insanely painful. Saturday I went to the farmers market, painfully walked around and got some veggies. then I went to a graduation party for a little bit. It was also my sisters birthday, so went out to dinner that night. Lots of eating out.
Today I was lazy. I spent the morning shopping for my sisters baby shower next weekend. I went by Ross and got two very cute dresses. I am starting to become obsessed with these stores!! :)
I am looking to join a weight watchers meeting on tuesday nights somewhere between Del Mar and here. I have an appointment every other tuesday night, so I figure I could just kill two birds with one stone. I will check in to that in a minute.
Groceries and gas are killing me. Why is it so costly to eat healthy??
Thursday, May 12, 2011
Is it Friday yet?
I am happy it is Thursday...but come on Friday!!!
I am sitting at my desk, wanting to be outside! It is beautiful...dreaming of riding my bike along the coast! Of course the weather is going to change just in time for the weekend :(.
It probably doesnt help that a Jimmy Buffett song just came on my ipod mix.
I will be back later with things to be thankful for on Thursday :)
I am sitting at my desk, wanting to be outside! It is beautiful...dreaming of riding my bike along the coast! Of course the weather is going to change just in time for the weekend :(.
It probably doesnt help that a Jimmy Buffett song just came on my ipod mix.
I will be back later with things to be thankful for on Thursday :)
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
MIA
Sorry for being MIA. I have been busy. I am shocked to say that I did not turn on my laptop ALL weekend! What? yes, really :). It kind of felt nice.
I hope you all had a great mothers day...we went to brunch at Pala casino...yah, not so good for the diet. But I did very well! I didn't go to the gym all weekend....loser...too bad it is not a weight loser!
I am using SparkPeople to help me with keep tracking of what I am eating. Tomorrow I am off to the gym. I got my errands out of the way, so I have NO excuse!
I just found out that a precious little 6 year old girl who has been battling cancer lost her fight tonight. I can not even begin to imagine what that family is going through. I am happy for Claire who is now in a very happy place with Jesus. It just sucks for those left behind...life is not fair sometimes.
I am going to leave you with her favorite saying ..."there's always something to believe in".
I hope you all had a great mothers day...we went to brunch at Pala casino...yah, not so good for the diet. But I did very well! I didn't go to the gym all weekend....loser...too bad it is not a weight loser!
I am using SparkPeople to help me with keep tracking of what I am eating. Tomorrow I am off to the gym. I got my errands out of the way, so I have NO excuse!
I just found out that a precious little 6 year old girl who has been battling cancer lost her fight tonight. I can not even begin to imagine what that family is going through. I am happy for Claire who is now in a very happy place with Jesus. It just sucks for those left behind...life is not fair sometimes.
I am going to leave you with her favorite saying ..."there's always something to believe in".
Sunday, May 1, 2011
Day 1 of C25k and no carbs
It has been a beautiful weekend here in southeran California! (: I have been in heaven. I definately enjoy warmer weather...not a fan of cold weather...I feel that if it is cold it should be raining.
Sadly my Spring Break is over...but there are only about 6 weeks left of school! WooHoo!
This afternoon I got my butt in gear and started week one of c25k...it was hard, I am not going to lie. I actually couldn't run the last two intervals. ): not good. But at least I started. I can really tell how much weight I have gained....I felt like an elephant. How did I let this happen??? Oh yeah, I think I got too cocky.
After the gym I went to the store so that I can start phase 1 of the South beach diet. This worked for me about a year ago. I lose about 18 pounds by not eating carbs. I am hopeful that with no carbs and training for the 5k I will lose!! I hope so...
I have a crustless quiche in the oven right now :).
have a good Sunday evening!
Sadly my Spring Break is over...but there are only about 6 weeks left of school! WooHoo!
This afternoon I got my butt in gear and started week one of c25k...it was hard, I am not going to lie. I actually couldn't run the last two intervals. ): not good. But at least I started. I can really tell how much weight I have gained....I felt like an elephant. How did I let this happen??? Oh yeah, I think I got too cocky.
After the gym I went to the store so that I can start phase 1 of the South beach diet. This worked for me about a year ago. I lose about 18 pounds by not eating carbs. I am hopeful that with no carbs and training for the 5k I will lose!! I hope so...
I have a crustless quiche in the oven right now :).
have a good Sunday evening!
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Reality Check
This morning I had a doctor's appointment. I am really disappointed in myself. It is time to get my ass in gear. I have gained weight and feel extremely fat. I am sick about this.
Unfortunately my first reaction to "going on a diet" is to eat everything that I am going to eliminate from my house - NOW! I know, horrible idea. I keep telling myself that. I have one cupcake left and am going to eat that to get it out of here...I am sure I will only eat half of it....I will let you know ;) I came home from the doc and made myself a salad for lunch. Spicy ranch dressing, butter lettuce, some cheese and a morningstar chicken patty. It was really good. I can't afford to do weight watchers weekly...so I am going to count calories and work my ass off - it better end up being literally!
Tomorrow I am starting c25k. I read on Mama Laughlin's blog that she lost 40 pounds in 9 weeks through this! HOLY COW. I know I feel better when I exercise. I have every other day this week. Gym and a bike ride through the harbor. I loved it. I know that none of my shorts are going to fit this summer unless I lose at least 20 pounds. I can do that in 9 weeks, right? I need to go do some research on how many calories I should be eating in a day. I am open to any suggestions ;)
Unfortunately my first reaction to "going on a diet" is to eat everything that I am going to eliminate from my house - NOW! I know, horrible idea. I keep telling myself that. I have one cupcake left and am going to eat that to get it out of here...I am sure I will only eat half of it....I will let you know ;) I came home from the doc and made myself a salad for lunch. Spicy ranch dressing, butter lettuce, some cheese and a morningstar chicken patty. It was really good. I can't afford to do weight watchers weekly...so I am going to count calories and work my ass off - it better end up being literally!
Tomorrow I am starting c25k. I read on Mama Laughlin's blog that she lost 40 pounds in 9 weeks through this! HOLY COW. I know I feel better when I exercise. I have every other day this week. Gym and a bike ride through the harbor. I loved it. I know that none of my shorts are going to fit this summer unless I lose at least 20 pounds. I can do that in 9 weeks, right? I need to go do some research on how many calories I should be eating in a day. I am open to any suggestions ;)
Monday, April 25, 2011
Let the games begin....
Spring Break is finally here! Finally! Did I say finally? I needed a break from work so badly!!
Easter was great as usual. It is my favorite church service of the year...I love the music! We had an easter egg hunt at mom and dad's for Kate. Wow, she scored! Mom got us little easter basket, not too much candy! I gave some to my sis and bro in law. Kate said to me "you are such a nice sister". I asked her why, and she said, "you gave candy to your big sister, that is nice, you shared". so damn cute. I think she is trying to convince herself that having a little sis will be ok :). She has no idea the fun that will ensue! we went back to my parents house for dinner that night. In between, I took a 2 hour nap! That never happens! I was supposed to go to the gym, but sleeping was happening instead!
I started off my spring break with a good workout. I went to the gym this am and did the treadmill. Felt good to have the sweat dripping down my back! tomorrow I am going to go for a bike ride. It is supposed to be tshirt and shorts weather here...in the 80's by Wednesday! I am in heaven!
My bff and I signed up to run a 5k at the end of August. I am excited. I need to get into training mode though. She is kicking my butt already! :)
This afternoon I am going with my sis to register her for the new baby. i think we are going to Target. Also, have to start planning the baby shower. I love to throw parties!
Later I am going to post my goals for the month of May.
Have a great Monday!
Easter was great as usual. It is my favorite church service of the year...I love the music! We had an easter egg hunt at mom and dad's for Kate. Wow, she scored! Mom got us little easter basket, not too much candy! I gave some to my sis and bro in law. Kate said to me "you are such a nice sister". I asked her why, and she said, "you gave candy to your big sister, that is nice, you shared". so damn cute. I think she is trying to convince herself that having a little sis will be ok :). She has no idea the fun that will ensue! we went back to my parents house for dinner that night. In between, I took a 2 hour nap! That never happens! I was supposed to go to the gym, but sleeping was happening instead!
I started off my spring break with a good workout. I went to the gym this am and did the treadmill. Felt good to have the sweat dripping down my back! tomorrow I am going to go for a bike ride. It is supposed to be tshirt and shorts weather here...in the 80's by Wednesday! I am in heaven!
My bff and I signed up to run a 5k at the end of August. I am excited. I need to get into training mode though. She is kicking my butt already! :)
This afternoon I am going with my sis to register her for the new baby. i think we are going to Target. Also, have to start planning the baby shower. I love to throw parties!
Later I am going to post my goals for the month of May.
Have a great Monday!
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